Friday, 1 October 2021

1/10/21 ^^^I fear depression the most

 With depression comes the desire to eat high-carbs, high-fat food, excessive sleep, no motivation to exercise, and worst, desire to smoke pot.

I need to fight all these.

The best is to take a rest.

I think one week rest is good,

Definitely, I need to do OMAD.  I think I go ahead and eat rice for dinner.

I change my mind.  I only eat OMAD LCHF.

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It is very tempting to smoke pot right now.

I promised to meet BJ at 9:00 pm tonight,

I think I just call it off.

I fell off the wagon with my diet and exercise this week.  I need to get back on track.

This is a very dangerous time for me.

Well, I have to say no often.

This is 2021, I need to break away from the 4 Cs.

I have an illness.  And yet I try to self-medicate.  Not good at all.

The key is to stay from Sugar and Starch.  Not smoking pot.  It will make it worse.

If I want to fight it, I have to stand my ground.

Let's try jazz.  It seems to work.

I have to make a conscious [] (effort) to quit DAMAGING my lungs.

What is the answer?

Jazz.

Els.

Exercise.

Cold Dark Roast.

Nutritional Yeast.

There are so many options I can choose from before I reach out for dope.

Certainly, I should not eat high-carb and high-fat food.

Let me go for another round of Cold Dark Roast.

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I think I call off tonight's meeting with BJ.  I sleep at 9:30 pm, wake up at 4:30 am, and start my Athlete4Life routine all over again.

I need to fight this.

Otherwise, I will fall into a rut.

This is the make-or-break situation for me.

This is what separates the men from the boys.

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