>>>#22/10/21 A letter to Els

 My darling wife Els,

Thank you for cheering me up yesterday.  I was under the weather after I completed the mission to Sidratul Muntaha.  It seems that this sort of slump is quite common for those who accomplish great feats like running a marathon or returning from Outerspace.

My challenge has always been on maintaining a sanity check on my thoughts and actions.  It's not easy.  I'm treading in unchartered water.  At the same time, I don't have anybody who I can refer to in order to validate my behavior.

Sweetheart, am I crazy or am I the real deal?  I don't feel crazy at all.  Along the way, I validate my actions against the various health markers and I feel as normal as hell.

Perhaps sanity is something that is decided by somebody else.  So darling, let me ask you again, am I crazy?

You have to help me, baby.  I don't have anybody else to turn to.  Always the case that I can't validate against a person.  I have a couple of close friends who thinks I am exceptional and there is nothing wrong with me.  However, the opinion that matters most to me is yours.

I interact with you on daily basis.  So what you say, counts.  If in your eyes I am not crazy, I will feel at ease being who I am.  I don't expect you to say that I am normal.  However, if you say be yourself, that is good enough.

Coincidently, this song is on air; be who you wanna be: 

1994, ALEC BENJAMIN

See?  *The[r]e (These) are the kind of miracles that is a common occurrence in my life.  Now tell me if that doesn't make you question your sanity.

* An[] (And) you and your ciphers don't make things better, Sarah.

According to Hume, no matter what miracles God performs, it is always more reasonable to believe that the event in question has a natural cause and is not miraculous.

Alright, Sarah.  You don't think I'm crazy.  So just one more perspective and we'll tilt the scale wi[ll] (with) E.L.S.

mm

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

#traxxfm Honey, I sent this letter to your email for your perusal: https://2021awwasep-dec.blogspot.com/2021/10/221021-letter-to-els.html… I also CC it here so that Rex

@KongEu3

can help me give his perspective on the whole conundrum. That is how desperate I am to stay afloat.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@KongEu3

@elsDines

#traxxfm Jolly good Rex, so I march to the beat of my own drum. Nevertheless, the burden of leadership can be overwhelming at times.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@KongEu3

@elsDines

#traxxfm You know what is most intriguing? I have first-hand experience to differentiate between sanity and insanity. I know I am not insane. Yet I can't pin down my experience using the scientific method, Much like what was observed by Erwin Schrodinger.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@KongEu3

@elsDines

#traxxfm So Rex and my darling sweetheart, both of you got to help me answer the question even Einstein cannot answer:

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@RTM_Malaysia

#traxxfm Hi Mr. Pumba Ranggi, I'm sourcing *o[f] (out) people's opinions of my mental state: https://2021awwasep-dec.blogspot.com/2021/10/221021-letter-to-els.html… What is your stand? * Sarah voted in favor of me. I will know from

@elsDines

this evening.