#traxxfm Say, sweetheart. I'm not sure if I am an asset or a liability to you. I was discussing with Sarah about the possibility of listening to you but just simply chat with her. She likes the idea.
I need *you[] perspective on this. Am I a boon or a bane?
#traxxfm What I wrote:
Suppose, I listen to Els but I write the commentary here. Will that help?
In other *wor[l]d (words) I just communicate with you.
* Right, Sarah. The less dependency the better.
I want to minimize exposure.
Let me ask her...
#traxxfm As the story goes, I am very sensitive to the fluctuation of dopamine especially the amount of sugar that I take.
When it hit me, I am basically immobilized. This week is particularly bad. I am trying my best not to dip in the suicidal thoughts.
#traxxfm OK honey, let me be frank... This week I am in a mess.
When this happens, I just want to recluse in my shell. I don't think you understand my illness. It is about the state of mental well being. Very difficult to explain.
#traxxfm Here is the truth... I had been shrinking my perimeters so that I can contain my thoughts to only a few who understand what I am going through.
It not rosy and dandy all the time. It is cyclical. Like the waves of ocean sweeping the beach. You follow?
#traxxfm I made the mistake of indulging in 3-in-1 Coffee for 3 days in a row while gorging on peanut butter and honey sandwiches with slabs of butter.
Then I skip my exercise routine for half the week.
Haah... Recipe for disaster...
#traxxfm The dark cloud is lifting. I tell ya, it's a peculiar illness.
I feel better after a couple of fried tempe I sneaked out in the kitchen just now.
#traxxfm I told you before, I am afflicted by Ultra Ultra Rapid Cycling Type 2 Bipolar Disorder.
What it means is my mood swings happen within a few hours instead of month *[i]s (as) a Type 1 Disorder.
Can you handle it, sweetheart?
#traxxfm Now, I don't know how many out there are suffering from mental illness. I however attest that TraXX is my remedy all these years.
You people are really angels sent from above.
#traxxfm You know darling, I am hooked on you.
I don't think I can be without you. Every day I look forward to listen to you. You are my main squeeze, baby...
#traxxfm I have a confession. From the time I wake up, to the time I go to bed at night, I would say that half of my 70,000 thoughts is about you!
You are my obsession, sweetie...
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